When I usually get a message from a photographer or model, I usually have to ask what the conversation started with. It usually is a dicey situation that neither party really knows on how to get out of. It is a funny concept that things are done more on imagination and changed on the dime than really thought through. Concrete plans just seem to have gone out the window.
I usually try to think about what I say or type to another person. I guess I have to try to think about he person who is on the receiving end of things. Having a thought and then saying to someone, you never know on how it will be received. They might have had an instance where you don’t know that they had a situation similar or one that they would rather run from. I just had someone come into my cubicle and tell me something that to me was just odd. I was like “ sorry but, I really just don’t care.” It is the way the world works. Guess it is time to get serious.
Have you ever had that Thelma and Louise moment when you do something that you know would possibly scar you for life? Have you thought about how much of a rush it would be to try something that you thought that you would never do even if you were drunk? I have to admit, that 2018 will be that kind of a year. I have a few new plans that would be amazing if they happen but, then again not sure if they would be something that I would be able to live to tell about.
With the prospect of the nuclear war that seems to be on the news every day, almost like the time when the Y2K news was on and everyone was getting their bunker ready. I think that more people are feeling the sense of entitlement. This is not just a millennial thing. I almost want to say that this is a modeling thing. Some of the models and photographers that I have run into just want to be handed and given EVERYTHING. They want to have the highest paying shoots but, they don’t want to work to make the shoot happen. Planning is not an option as that would take time out of their social calendar.
I guess when you get the keys to the new Mercedes at graduation or when you turn 16, changes you. It is the age of playing it safe. It is not the time that you see people taking those risks. That would be hard for them to do as YOLO was gone as soon as it came.
Modeling is not the industry that you are going to be handed things. Yes, you might be pretty but, then so is everyone else around you. There is a thing called a personality. Some have it and some do not. Now what you want to leave as a legacy and a memory should be something that you can ponder over and make your move. And then you can figure out if you are going to jump off the cliff head first with or without the parachute.
The past couple of weeks were kind of scary for me to be honest. I had an episode where I nearly passed out on the way to the office. I found out that it is classed as a complex migraine. It mimics the symptoms of a stroke. Yeeks! I went into the doctor’s office with a blood pressure of 160/100! I felt helpless and was scared of what would be found. They asked me if I had any stresses lately. Hum, not really, I had a headache over the weekend but, nothing that I would have to set me of as an alarm.
I then wondered is inadvertently that some of the news and the reactions that I had been watching over the last few days had played any into the role of my health. I wanted to think not. I had been reading in the past few weeks where a model had taken herself off of her tour due to health concerns. She was grateful for everyone who she had worked with but, had to take some time to get better. It really is time to unplug.