I have some new images from Scott Gibson studios as well as another photographer that are going to be put up over the next few weeks. I am always excited to work with new photographers, models, and companies. If you are interested in booking an assignment in the New Year, please let me know. Looking forward to working with you.
With the posts on social media is is interesting on who is very into the holidays and who is not. It makes you think, do the holidays have too much cheer? Why is there added stress to the holidays? Is that to make sure that friends and family have the best time and get the best gifts?
I find myself this year just not in the holiday mood. I am not sure if it is due to the fact that I wanted one assignment to last forever and it did not. I had really high hopes for this year. I wanted a lot to happen. I wanted for some of the reactions from people to be sincere. I found that I just got the responses that just came out of their mouths. I have to digress back to the saying “reality bites.”
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas to everybody, enjoy this time of year with all your family & friends. Looking forward to a great 2019!
I recently got a text from someone who I have known for about 30 years. I have had my falling out with them over and over and for some reason, I keep letting this person back into my life. I had mentioned to this person on what I had been happening in my life. The roller coaster of life is what I call it. I thought I would get a little bit of sympathy but, I didn’t. I got the information on how well that person was doing. How their life was perfect.
I got an email from a photographer who I had worked with a long time ago. We had one shoot and that was ok. It was nothing that I would have written home about. It was just odd for this person to message me out of the blue and expect that we were going to be best friends. He had clearly made it known that he was not going to pay me for any modeling. To me that was not worth my time as I had enough time for prints shooting lined up that I did not need to add him to the mix.
I did not want to angry at either of these instances. I just wanted them gone. I wanted my past to go back to that. Just being the past was going to be to me a lesson learned. I did not need to rehash things. I had to digress and really wonder if I should have been angry for them to be saying what they had said. I also had to wonder if they even cared about the situation that I was currently in. I just wanted to close that chapter and then again put it in where it needed to be, the past.
I find myself asking this as I have been employed through several staffing agencies. I have always had two careers. I have my modeling one and then I have my admin one. I try to keep the separate at all times but, this time I find my emotions running into the other. I hate the feeling when you are not sure on what you are supposed to do or what you are supposed to say.
It feels like a first date. When you are going through your closet and finding that outfit that you want to remember until the relationship is over. You find it. You put it out on the bed and make sure that you can rock the date with the outfit that would or should be on the red carpet.
The date comes and goes and you wonder if your past will come into play with the date. Are you comparing this person to the ones you have dated in the past? All of the anxiety comes into play. You wonder if you are really making a good decision with your time or if you should have just ordered take out and called it a night.
Crazy that one piece of paper and the past can determine your future. You are expected to make mistakes. You are expected to have had a life. It is what you make of it, which really can tell you and only you what you are worth.
