Happy Valentine’s Day from Ashleighe!
Since I have not been able to shoot at all these last few months due to medical reasons, I am putting up some Throwback images from the past. With being in the business for now 27 years.. I have a few older ones that are my faves. I have to admit, I miss working with some of the photogs. Others I am glad that I only worked with them once. That was enough for me.
I look back on my career as some of it has been full time modeling and other times part time. I have always tried to make sure that I keep my modeling a business. I encourage ones who are getting into the business to be on that same page. They will have that rapport and that reputation going a long way.
Enjoy these as we post them up on the site. A few will be forthcoming over the next few weeks. Thank again for stopping by.
Remember being a kid and just doing things. No instructions. Also no worries about what might happen. It makes you have that invincible notion going on. You can conquer the world or so you thought? Right? Modeling is kind of the same thing. It changes all of the time. There is some form to it but, there are also some parts where it is and will be fluid.
With the new age of social media, more and more models and photographers for that matter are reaching out to people through that form of communication. Less models have websites. There are more guys with cameras = GWC. Changes are happening more at the shoot than expected. People are not who they say that they are. Catfishing on models or people pretending to be that model is rampant.
And here you are and thinking you know it all. You don’t. I don’t either. I find that the minute that I think I do, there is something more that I can learn. I find that I chat with more models who are at the two to three years in, they have been so popular in the last few months so they don’t think that they will ever be bored. Then the assignments slow down. The have to rebrand and try not to burn as many bridges with the ego that they have acquired.
I have found that the bridges that I burned were thankfully not that many but, I also know that the relationship can never be saved or reopened again. I let the ego of the status of the times get the best of me. I honestly thought I knew it all and did some of the stupid modelish things. I over flirted. I tried to get more out of a person on a level that I am not even sure I was comfortable with. I wanted the challenge. There is always something to learn. There is never a time where we know it all.
Emails and texts are the worst when it comes to having any type of emotion. I love them as you have things in black and white. There are no discrepancies but, when you have this kind of communication, there is always room for error.
I recently had a situation with a photographer/ friend ( I thought ) . I am not going to go into the whole she said he said. That is not even worth the paper or letters. I had to rebut a comment that was made. In the sending of that email I got three and I do mean three quick FU emails back, telling me on how wrong I was and what was this going to accomplish. I waited to compose my email a good 12 hours after the last communication. I needed to process what was being said.
I think that there is something to be said about writing with and without emotions. You really have to think about how it will be received. Regardless with whatever happens to my incident that happened. I have learned in the past that yes, you will burn a few bridges in the past but, then there is the issue that you have to pic the battles that you want to fight. In any case, you need to write, email, or text when you have calmed down.
A few weeks ago, I had to put one of my cats down. I had never had to put an animal down before. This was a first and I knew then why I had not been there or done it before. I was heart wrenching. You fight for your animals. They are part of your family.
I had a coworker who also recently lost her family member as well. It was unexpected and sudden. This cat was young and even with the short time that they had had her. She had made such an impact on the family.
Healing time is always hard. You can’t put your finger on it on how long it will take. I still call out for my cat. I sometimes find myself putting down food for her or ice in the water dish just like she liked it. My other cats are grateful for the other attention. I have not ignored them but, embraced each day with them even more.
I wish that there was a clock that could rewind time. I want those moments that I had with her back. I want to make sure that she knows how much we wanted to fight for her to live another day. I wanted to not be selfish but, she left such a hole. There are no words that can make things hurt less. You just have to know that the healing time is there. And that with all of the great memories that you have, cherish those.
- February 2019
- January 2019
- December 2018
- November 2018
- October 2018
- September 2018
- August 2018
- July 2018
- June 2018
- May 2018
- April 2018
- March 2018
- February 2018
- January 2018
- December 2017
- November 2017
- October 2017
- September 2017
- August 2017
- July 2017
- June 2017
- April 2017
- March 2017
- February 2017
- January 2017
- December 2016
- November 2016
- October 2016
- September 2016